Let me start by prefacing this post by saying I feel extremely fortunate this time around to have been able to breastfeed Harlow. If you have been following along with us, you know I wasn’t able to breastfeed Luca, and I was comfortable with my decision at that time, and am still thrilled with that decision now, and hence moving forward. I think every mama is doing her very best to feed her babies however that might be, so please read this post as merely circumstantial, and not as me whining about my blessings, I know them well and count them every day.
Okay, so now that I’ve said what I needed to say, Harlow is just about 16 and a half months and we are still nursing. He doesn’t have any particular or definitive breastfeeding schedule, but rather just nurses on demand. My goal was to make it 6 months, and well, while I planned to stop at a year, it just goes to show you how nothing can really be “planned” with children. I know how normal and natural this is, and I have zero qualms about that, it’s more so the sleep aspect of this journey. Harlow doesn’t sleep through the night. He wakes once or twice a night to nurse himself back to sleep. For me, this is extremely difficult. I feel overtired and overwhelmed. We recently tried to begin sleeping him in his crib using the Ferber method. This has been working well as for going to bed, but he wakes up at 1 a.m. crying. I have a hard time letting him cry it out because I worry it will wake up Luca and Miles, but I also want him to learn to self soothe. So many dilemmas, just one mama here.