I haven’t been on here for a while because, well, LIFE! I had to replace my tires, get some work done on my car, drive out to Riverside for a few days, and so on and so forth. Our lease is coming to an end and we knew we would have to move because the price of rent in our current home is beginning to weigh on our income. It’s just so expensive. We’ve found a new spot, a bit further north, although still coastal. We’re waiting on our application to go through, so fingers crossed! We’re in a bit of a limbo as we need time to really hunt for a more permanent home, but we don’t want to rush into anything or get trapped in another year long lease, so we’re going to settle somewhere for six months or so, and then go month to month until the right place comes along!Harlow is teething…still. I’ve talked about it before, but it’s been a completely different experience than Luca’s. He’s on the verge of walking, but we’ve been saying that for weeks. He’s so stubborn, I swear he’s just holding out for when we aren’t looking. He’s taken two baby steps so far and that is the extent of it all! Hard to believe, but Harlow turned 11 months on the 8th of April, and I’m still trying to contain my tears as his first birthday approaches. I still don’t have this mom gig figured out in the slightest. I think it’s all just continual progress, lessons learned, and being flexible. I’m definitely trying to give myself more grace during this stage of growing up.Speaking of which, Luca is growing like never before. I blinked and the toddler phase was just gone. He’s totally his own person, with opinions, questions, preferences, and so on. I can’t believe he’ll be turning FOUR!! (in July….)What??? Time really is a thief, here one second, gone the next. Lately his favorite things to do include soccer, going to preschool, playing at the park, night swimming with dad, and practicing his easter egg hunt and find skills.Speaking of growing older, this old blog here will be 4 years old on the 2oth this month! I am so proud if it, mainly because, it’s my journal I’ve continuously kept for the past four years, and those four years have been some of the best times I’ve ever known. I hope to keep holding on to that and continue contributing to this place. You can go back and read my very first post HERE –I do warn, the picture quality is awful! But you blog and you learn! haha. Thank you for reading along whether you’ve just joined the party or have been here all along. I appreciate your company here more than you could ever know! Hope to be back here more often very soon! Until then…
So you may be thinking…wait, I thought you didn’t have cable? If you remember this post here I talk all about how we nixed our cable when we moved to San Diego. No new news here, we still don’t have cable. And, I will say, the longer we go on without it, the less I long to ever have it again. If I could subscribe to Viceland, separate from having cable, I’d be set as that is the only channel I really even miss. I suppose it’s the whole “out of sight, out of mind” concept. I won’t go into too much detail on how I am able to watch the shows I talk about below, but you can snatch up all the information in the blog post I linked above!
Location: AN INTERNAL HAPPY PLACE.
I haven’t done a “Body After Baby” post in quite a while, and while I’m happy to announce that I’ve officially made it back to my before babies (emphasize on the “S”) weight (all the heart eyes, all the explanation points !!!). I thought I would share with you what I have found to help me maintain my
new old healthy weight, and goals I have going forward.
I used to read a book nearly every two weeks (that was B.K. –before kids). Now I’m lucky if I can finish one in a 3 month time frame. It’s just not realistic for me to sit down and have quiet time to flip through a new page turner. Even with the little time I do have to myself at night, reading makes me tired + I’m sure to fall asleep with the book on my chest and drool on my chin.
Today started out pretty hectic, waking up after sleeping in one hour increments last night. Harlow was up all night, at every hour, crying until I nursed and snuggled him back to sleep. We finally decided to just get up for the day at 6:30. Miles had already left for his first day of school. He’s back at it, enrolled in college again, and I couldn’t be any prouder of him. Luca was still sound asleep, and so I decided to watch another episode of ‘Shameless,’ while Harlow played, on Netflix.
Location: VULNERABLE BLVD.
True to form, the New Year is off to a quick start…How we’ve already made our way mid-month blows my mind. Enough small talk though, I feel like I’ve been keeping so much from you, and I want this year, this new season, this new chapter of this place to be different. Lately, it feels like the reason I haven’t felt as connected is in the way I’m partially leading with a front, and holding back so much of what is going on in my world for sake of being embarrassed or exposed, and that makes me nervous. I also know what a blockade that has made between us, and that changes now. My body is literally begging for me to be more vulnerable with you, and I have to admit, that is hard for me. Maybe I should read some Brene Brown? But until I can schedule more time to get on that task, I thought I would start by listing all the things I’ve been afraid to tell you and then some.